Looking back.

I always thought that looking back was a bad thing.
And you should not do this...
Just keep looking forward; never look back. Just keep pressing on.

But now I feel more than ever that I need to look back.

Because...

When I look back...
...that's where I see the distance I have already traveled.

There I see the paths I can now choose not to take, because I know where they've led me.
There I see all the things I have al ready accomplished.

Thou shall not mourn!

So many people keep telling each other that we must go on, keep looking forward only, and not think too much about the past.
And also; you cannot mourn about the following things:
-Past relations
-Dead goldfish
-Divorce
Because this is either silly or unnecessary in other people's eyes, so it should be in yours too.

But I've found out the opposite is true.
Only if you really mourn about these things it really gets the place it deserves, and you will finally be at peace with it.

I'm not telling you to constantly think and talk about you dead goldfish or you ex, but sometimes; when it feels right. (Dosed)
Theres no need in ignoring your feelings and things that have been part of your life, you shouldn't push it away, but rather share about the good stuff and try to be constructive about the bad.

Give it, and yourself the space you need.

Are we going for short term or the long term?

It's a very fine line between what you want, and what you actually need..

Wanting being: right now.
Needing being: on the long term.

And it seems infinitely easier to do what you want. And you reap instant benefits. (Neglecting all the short and long term negative effects.)

Whereas doing what you need can look like a mountain high, but it is much more beneficiary on the long run.

You're doing it all wong!!! [ptII]

There's all these things in my head telling me I am doing things wrong, that I'm a misfit, that I suck at life...
Is it even me who said this?
(or are these someone else's old rantings?)

And do I even agree?

You're doing it all wrong!!

I keep telling myself how much I am doing wrong; but how much am I doing right?

I'm doing shitloads right!! :D
I'd almost say I'm kinda getting it; this thing called 'life' 😂

Let's agree to disagree.

In life you got beaten either physically, verbally or both...

The younger you are, the bigger chances are that you make them your own.

...you might even take over some of the exact words and repeat them to yourself your entire life.

But the big question is.. 

Do you agree?

...to these messages that are not of your own.

Stupid psycho! ᵖᵃʳᵗ²

What if one of my great wheel-chaired buddies say; "I know I'm physically disabled, that I need a wheelchair, but I'm not going to use it."

Wouldn't that be silly?

more than just using one, and let it defy who you are?

You are not your wheelchair, you are not your support group, you are not your clothing, poison or music.

You might me part of you, you might be part of it, but it does not defy you.

Your character, standpoints, morale and (re)actions do.

I love all of you whom try to do your best<3

(especially if you have not much tools at hand)

And don't forget; Kill 'em with kindness ;)